20 Aug 2000
20aug99, 12:40a. outside templin hall.
i want to write, ’shouldn’t i feel something? the girl i love is marrying another man!‘, but i can’t honestly say that. i don’t even feel in love with her (and i don’t know when i stopped).
i wish that someone i know (or not) would walk up to me and sit down and we wouldn’t have to say a word, and we’d just understand. of course, the next obvious thought is, ‘jesus is here! he does understand!’ but it’s just not comforting right now.
i do believe jesus understands. i’m pretty sure she understood. i really doubt this caterpillar understands. or that dude with the backwards hat.